Deconstructing Tara



August 4, 2014

Just spoke with the publicist at AuthorHouse.  I’ve been trying a little to publicize on my own, but of course, I am working on another novel and still am not working for income so funding any kind of effort is kind of out of the question.

They do offer a booksellers return program which would be great, but it costs $700 + and obviously I don’t have that.  So, the links where you can buy the book are listed below.  I guess you could order it directly from me, but I would have to order from them at this point.  As soon as I can afford a supply of copies I will sell them through my paypal. a

Barnes and Noble – 9781496925916

Amazon –

Or, of course, if you want to donate towards my promotion project, you can click on the paypal link below.

And review what you’ve read.  It helps.  Thanks.

July 22, 2012


“All you’ve done is to be different from other women and you’ve made a little success at it. As I’ve told you before, that is the one unforgivable sin in any society. Be different and be damned!…Remember, a well-bred female’s place is in the home and she should know nothing about this busy, brutal world.” Rhett Butler  Margaret Mitchell, Gone with the Wind, 1936

This was a very disturbing book for me to write. First, because even though it’s my writing, it is not my story. Second, because it’s not the subject matter I usually choose to write about. And finally, because I was absolutely compelled to write it.

Once I started, I couldn’t stop. Whether, as psychic friends have told me, I was channeling Tara’s spirit, or if some deep, previously unacknowledged personal psychosis was at work; I wrote scene after scene of a life I had never known, including those of graphic sexual abuse.

Fortunately, I have learned to be a ruthless editor and my reader has been spared the endless repetition of Theo’s obsessive sexual debasement of Tara’s body, and of Tara’s own obsession with her objectified beauty and desirability.

Having lived through the 70’s as a young woman, and having experienced to some degree the exhilaration and apprehension of what have come to be recognized as the sexual revolution and women’s liberation, I know these characters, many of these scenes, and surely the plot, some of which I actually experienced, but much of which simply ‘came to me.’ Even though I was alive then, this is a work of fiction.

Even with a suicide note, which Tara did not leave, survivors are left to wonder what could possibly cause a loved one to choose death over life. We living, even being aware of the pervasiveness of extreme physical and psychological pain, cannot fully comprehend suicide. Suicides seem to be the result of fearing life more than death.

Personally, I feel that it is the fear of failure or punishment rather than the fear of death that keeps many of us in the corporeal world until our ultimate and inevitable end. None of we living know. We are not allowed a definitive answer from the enemy we must embrace but know not.

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